Want.

I never realise I can want something this badly. It wasn't even this bad 4 years ago! I know I most probably won't get it but just a small amount of hope keeps me going. My hopes are not high so I won't be devastated if I don't get it but I hate not being able to stop myself from thinking! I hate to be unable to be in control of my mind... Now, focus on my 423 paper tmr!! *focus!!*