i think my boyfriend forgot he has a girlfriend.

xmas eve

happy happy day :)

training #1

i'm sad because i can't walk properly and i can't even stand properly let alone do a turn properly. it's so difficult! arrrrgh. i feel like a clumsy elephant and i can't stop being paiseh. roar.

merry xmas eve!

twilight

bf didn't like the show. i thought it was okay.

seriously. the show had a hypnotising effect on me. nope, it did not caused me to fall asleep. but basically throughout the show i was just staring at the main actress and edward cullen. i don't even remember the name of the main actress. the 2 of them just look damn good together! the whole show is just so dreamy. i think i can just smile at the sight of him. and the guy is really damn charming. he is damn pale looking but he is SO CHARMING. even if he looked damn damn retarded in the show.

dear bf tried acting retarded because he felt that that's all the edward cullen looked like. i think he's just jealous.


EDITED:

OMG OMG i went to check imdb and i realised he was CEDRIC DIGGORY in harry potter!! I LOVE HIM!! shit. i remember coming out of cinema after watching HP4 feeling totally smittened by him! i even took a photo of his poster outside the cinema (boohoo i lost it). he is english and he IS SO CUTE!

kill me.


EDITED 2:

he is 22 years and she is 18 years. and i just realised she was the little girl from panic room when she was only 12 years old.

random random.

half the time i didn't know what u're doing
half the time i couldn't contact u
half the time i complain u put in more effort for others than for me
half the time i'm sad and nothing makes me feel better.

went to do volunteer work with mich yi bran and his friends today. haha. went to dakota that area to give out bags of stuff to allocated units. and sing christmas carol to them. it was organised by the south east cdc dunno what thing for the elderly needy pple staying around the area.

there were several groups so it did not take very long as we were only supposed to give out 8 bags of stuff. each bag is definitely more than 5kg because the rice is already 5kg. and there is still a bottle of oil, cans of drinks, packet of soyabeanmilk, etc. imagine carrying bags up and down stairs to give to the families. damn heavy! then after talking a little to the residents, we sang christmas carols while bran played the guitar. the first grandma we met kept wiping her eyes. i don't know if she was crying or it's just a habit or she just woke up? and the big wide smile the residents put on their face while we sang brought an even bigger smile on mine. the trip was nice and i felt so touched by myself when i was carolling to them. it was definitely worth the trip to see them smiling so happily :)

feeling down.

i don't know.

why do i look so weak?
why do i feel so weak?

why am i so weak?

spending wayyyyy too much money this month!
finished my allowance and tuition pay already.
and there's still more than 10 days this month.

:(

still feeling low. but this time there's a reason.

but thankfully i have you

thank you for accompany me today
thank you for giving in to my endless rants
thank you for giving in to my endless cravings
thank you for giving in to me even though usually i'm the one giving in. =p
thank you for giving me the chance to be myself

i'm hungry now but i'm not thanking you for that.
but thank you for being there for me when i'm upset over things that upset me.

feeling low

Bad cramps. Nothing to do for the next hour while stoning at starbucks now. Not in the mood to read my book cuz am currently feeling giddy after spending an hour in mph. And the mickey mouse beside me stinks. Bad cramps bad cramps.

Consolation: he's coming back tonight and I got a new school bag from sis :)

小酒窝

歌手：林俊杰/蔡卓妍 歌曲：小酒窝

我还在寻找 一个依靠和一个拥抱
谁替我祈祷 替我烦恼 为我生气为我闹
幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了
我俩变得有话聊 有变化了

小酒窝常见到 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好

小酒窝常见到 迷人的无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是盒资料
终于找到心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好
我永远爱你到老

幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了
我俩变得有话聊 有变化了

小酒窝常见到 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好

小酒窝常见到 迷人的无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是盒资料
终于找到心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老

WO~小酒窝常见到 迷人的无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是盒资料
终于找到心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老

uh. completely random. craving for bor bor char char.

not gonna see him for the next 3 days cuz he'll be going to genting. communication will be to the minimum too.

oh okay gotta keep my objectives for this holiday in mind. KEEP THEM IN MIND!!

right. i am now still waiting for 2 parcels thru normal mail. and i suspect they're 'lost' so there, money lost. i don't know whether i shld doubt the seller or singpost. argh.
not going to buy anymore thing online unless it's expensive and i have to get it by registered mail.
hate hate hate!

i'm craving for MAYO PRAWN. omg.

DAMN DELICIOUSSSSSS.

have i mentioned i dreamt that i've got an F for 2 subjects? eeew. that's scary.

21 more days to results!

a night where u dun remember much

blank post here.

i dun really wan to talk about ytd night but i'm just leaving this post as a memory of ytd night.

this year's online shopping have been kinda bad. so far one mail that's been sent on monday hasn't reached me and i'm still waiting for it. hope it comes tmr. and this time i'm having more bad buys. urgh. some too big, and some are just unflattering. but to be fair, some are really loveeee. kinda turned off by some things i've gotten and kinda upset by a spree organiser who did not tell me my dress went oos after all these time.

boohoo.

oh and as i was scrolling down the blog i saw the post which i've indicated my addiction for spending money just few weeks ago. no more! i've stopped spreeing for the time being.

i've finished reading harry potter. i've finished doing the high comm thing. 2 things done on my list.

HAPPY!! it's a happy holiday =D

finally, i went down to high comm and finished submitting the documents. i'm so proud of myself! i did everything alone, and woke up after sleeping for only 2 hours and rushing down to high comm, taking train and cab and whatsnots. happy happy! but at the moment they told me that they will not return me my borang w, the cert that shows i'm part malaysian, i was actually a little sad. i always loved collecting tokens to show that i'm part of this and part of that, and the fact that i'm no longer part malaysian saddens me. i know it's crazy! i have never even stayed there for longer than a week before.

all right, now i'm totally looking forward to taking the oath and getting my passport. i want to go for a mini holiday!