i think my boyfriend forgot he has a girlfriend.

xmas eve

happy happy day :)

training #1

i'm sad because i can't walk properly and i can't even stand properly let alone do a turn properly. it's so difficult! arrrrgh. i feel like a clumsy elephant and i can't stop being paiseh. roar.

merry xmas eve!

twilight

bf didn't like the show. i thought it was okay.

seriously. the show had a hypnotising effect on me. nope, it did not caused me to fall asleep. but basically throughout the show i was just staring at the main actress and edward cullen. i don't even remember the name of the main actress. the 2 of them just look damn good together! the whole show is just so dreamy. i think i can just smile at the sight of him. and the guy is really damn charming. he is damn pale looking but he is SO CHARMING. even if he looked damn damn retarded in the show.

dear bf tried acting retarded because he felt that that's all the edward cullen looked like. i think he's just jealous.


EDITED:

OMG OMG i went to check imdb and i realised he was CEDRIC DIGGORY in harry potter!! I LOVE HIM!! shit. i remember coming out of cinema after watching HP4 feeling totally smittened by him! i even took a photo of his poster outside the cinema (boohoo i lost it). he is english and he IS SO CUTE!

kill me.


EDITED 2:

he is 22 years and she is 18 years. and i just realised she was the little girl from panic room when she was only 12 years old.

random random.

half the time i didn't know what u're doing
half the time i couldn't contact u
half the time i complain u put in more effort for others than for me
half the time i'm sad and nothing makes me feel better.

went to do volunteer work with mich yi bran and his friends today. haha. went to dakota that area to give out bags of stuff to allocated units. and sing christmas carol to them. it was organised by the south east cdc dunno what thing for the elderly needy pple staying around the area.

there were several groups so it did not take very long as we were only supposed to give out 8 bags of stuff. each bag is definitely more than 5kg because the rice is already 5kg. and there is still a bottle of oil, cans of drinks, packet of soyabeanmilk, etc. imagine carrying bags up and down stairs to give to the families. damn heavy! then after talking a little to the residents, we sang christmas carols while bran played the guitar. the first grandma we met kept wiping her eyes. i don't know if she was crying or it's just a habit or she just woke up? and the big wide smile the residents put on their face while we sang brought an even bigger smile on mine. the trip was nice and i felt so touched by myself when i was carolling to them. it was definitely worth the trip to see them smiling so happily :)

feeling down.

i don't know.

why do i look so weak?
why do i feel so weak?

why am i so weak?

spending wayyyyy too much money this month!
finished my allowance and tuition pay already.
and there's still more than 10 days this month.

:(

still feeling low. but this time there's a reason.

but thankfully i have you

thank you for accompany me today
thank you for giving in to my endless rants
thank you for giving in to my endless cravings
thank you for giving in to me even though usually i'm the one giving in. =p
thank you for giving me the chance to be myself

i'm hungry now but i'm not thanking you for that.
but thank you for being there for me when i'm upset over things that upset me.

feeling low

Bad cramps. Nothing to do for the next hour while stoning at starbucks now. Not in the mood to read my book cuz am currently feeling giddy after spending an hour in mph. And the mickey mouse beside me stinks. Bad cramps bad cramps.

Consolation: he's coming back tonight and I got a new school bag from sis :)

小酒窝

歌手：林俊杰/蔡卓妍 歌曲：小酒窝

我还在寻找 一个依靠和一个拥抱
谁替我祈祷 替我烦恼 为我生气为我闹
幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了
我俩变得有话聊 有变化了

小酒窝常见到 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好

小酒窝常见到 迷人的无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是盒资料
终于找到心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好
我永远爱你到老

幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了
我俩变得有话聊 有变化了

小酒窝常见到 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好

小酒窝常见到 迷人的无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是盒资料
终于找到心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老

WO~小酒窝常见到 迷人的无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是盒资料
终于找到心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老

uh. completely random. craving for bor bor char char.

not gonna see him for the next 3 days cuz he'll be going to genting. communication will be to the minimum too.

oh okay gotta keep my objectives for this holiday in mind. KEEP THEM IN MIND!!

right. i am now still waiting for 2 parcels thru normal mail. and i suspect they're 'lost' so there, money lost. i don't know whether i shld doubt the seller or singpost. argh.
not going to buy anymore thing online unless it's expensive and i have to get it by registered mail.
hate hate hate!

i'm craving for MAYO PRAWN. omg.

DAMN DELICIOUSSSSSS.

have i mentioned i dreamt that i've got an F for 2 subjects? eeew. that's scary.

21 more days to results!

a night where u dun remember much

blank post here.

i dun really wan to talk about ytd night but i'm just leaving this post as a memory of ytd night.

this year's online shopping have been kinda bad. so far one mail that's been sent on monday hasn't reached me and i'm still waiting for it. hope it comes tmr. and this time i'm having more bad buys. urgh. some too big, and some are just unflattering. but to be fair, some are really loveeee. kinda turned off by some things i've gotten and kinda upset by a spree organiser who did not tell me my dress went oos after all these time.

boohoo.

oh and as i was scrolling down the blog i saw the post which i've indicated my addiction for spending money just few weeks ago. no more! i've stopped spreeing for the time being.

i've finished reading harry potter. i've finished doing the high comm thing. 2 things done on my list.

HAPPY!! it's a happy holiday =D

finally, i went down to high comm and finished submitting the documents. i'm so proud of myself! i did everything alone, and woke up after sleeping for only 2 hours and rushing down to high comm, taking train and cab and whatsnots. happy happy! but at the moment they told me that they will not return me my borang w, the cert that shows i'm part malaysian, i was actually a little sad. i always loved collecting tokens to show that i'm part of this and part of that, and the fact that i'm no longer part malaysian saddens me. i know it's crazy! i have never even stayed there for longer than a week before.

all right, now i'm totally looking forward to taking the oath and getting my passport. i want to go for a mini holiday!

exams over

exams officially over!
ate steamboat ytd. suppered with dear and friends. and played a little cs. =D

today's officially the first day of school hols!
meeting up with them is good, everything sounds tempting but no, i will not lead myself back to the addictive lifestyle. i like my life now. although i really miss the period of them when i was having much fun and the friends i made were nice too.
those will be kept as beautiful memories.

no more going back. no more going back!

2 more papers!
5 days more till the next paper. SLACK FIRST!

明天以后 - 林峰 泳儿

OMG this songggggggggg.
the canto version is sooooooooooooooo nice. but obviously i can't sing the canto version.
omg i lovelovelovelove raymond lam.
gone are the days when i only like actresses!! omg raymond lammmm is sooo cool.

明天以后 - 林峰 泳儿
在你的记忆里面有一个我
在你最痛苦的时候陪你度过
难过过了 天晴朗了 我就走
你拯救我的寂寞 我的痛我的梦
在你的面前 我不必保留
还来不及对你说 迟到的我的心动
你的好 你的坏
我的脾气你最懂
我不要你心疼我（我不要你离开我）
明天的以后我们会懂
失恋的挫折让人变更成熟
我对你 感觉胜过爱情
因为有你 给我勇气
给我用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心 让你伤心（我不怕会伤心）
对不起 我对你 再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一 （我并不是你的唯一）
还微笑祝福你

你拯救我的寂寞 我的痛我的梦
在你的面前 我不必保留
我从来没对你说 压抑的 我的心动
我的好 我的坏 我的脾气你最懂
我不要你来心疼我
明天的以后我们会懂
失恋的挫折让人变更成熟
我对你 感觉胜过爱情
因为有你 给我勇气
给我用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心 让你伤心 （我不怕会伤心）
对不起 我对你 再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一 （我并不是你的唯一）
还微笑祝福你

爱情总让人折磨
所以我们才选择 做比情人更好的朋友
我对你 感觉胜过爱情
因为有你 给我勇气
给我用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心 让你伤心（我不怕会伤心）
对不起 我对你 再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一（我并不是你的唯一）

home cooked food smells good

i always get envious when i'm stuck at home and have to smell those super fragrant food smell from neighbouring kitchens. it's been a while since i've had such proper meals cooked at home, other than the fried beehoon my mother cooked 2 sundays ago. especially when i'm studying at home, with nothing to eat except some silly biscuits and chocolates and chips that i bought for myself because i know i'll end up with nothing to eat. when i'm too lazy to change and walk 3 mins to the nearby kopitiam to buy food. and those smells from neighbours are killing me.

HUNGRY.

sometimes i wish i don't have to eat out all the time. there's nothing healthy out there.

2 papers down!

omg i'm addicted to spending money.

why do i have to be addicted to sth everytime i have my exams?

at least i'm glad i'm not playing games now.

happy anniversaire

the french finally reply my email and say will refund my 31.20eur within 10 days. i'm already back for 3 months lo wth. and eur is super low now. super broke.

so many tests this wk. i think will skip my 311 test tmr. i will try my best for the exam then.

and i'm really suay to tio presentation for marketing. always hated presentation. and i'm already toooo busy to be preparing a presentation! kill me.

now i'm going NOWHERE for the next few months. i just hope a miracle appears and something good will be available for the next summer break.

nothing to rant about, except for the fact that exams is in 3 weeks time.

TRES OCCUPEEEEEEEEEEEE.

i like most of the electives i'm taking this sem. the only regret is that i've taken up the extra language on top of francais. ce n'est pas facile.

cutie cutez

executing the term 'acting cute' perfectly. not really acting la. is genuinely cute. *winks*

the computer is still scanning for virus

tell me. how can someone have so much disappointment in life everyday?

small things, big things, is it too much to ask for?

傻瓜

emo after seeing the mtv at kbox. roar.

温岚 - 傻瓜
其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁 暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱 撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜 我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜 我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱 撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜 我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜 我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

傻瓜 我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜 我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

study plan?

lol i'm 2 hours into making my study plan and i'm only halfway thru!!

wasting my time doing up a study plan when i could have finished at least 1 chapter of something.

it's okay... it's for the better.... roar.

papa's in shanghai and mummy's on the way to genting. have the whole house to myself and i can get to sch in comfort tmr. i can sleep at 2am and still have enough slp today!! WHEEEEE.

okay back to planning my plan.

toodles.

over the week

reebok pink ribbon walk

sister's pre bday dinner

recess wk

all's good... all's good...

monday went past fine, a reconciliation.
tues went good, new mio and meetup with yi.
wed will be study day.
thurs will be sch n swim n dinner.
friday.
sat. will be a good day :)

nth to say =D

woke up at 12pm, watched tv until 330pm.
slept from 345pm to 945pm.
played sushido. stone. and stone.

sometimes i wish life is just all about sleep and watch tv. and eat. i don't even want the internet.

It hurts to sometimes know that the trying gets unnoticed and makes things worst instead. It hurts to know that u're better off not being there. Sometimes it hurts even more to know that u'rr probably jinxed. Sometimes when your measuring cylinder is half empty, everything hurts.

I should get a retort stand soon. I want wth to hold everything in place.

recess week

recess is finally here!!!!!

school stuffs to complete this mini break:

inorganic NMR
lab report
write notes for malay
read marketing text
phys chem text
french role play

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so much love today. <3

too much waiting

i hate instep. gonna wait for second round. i really really hope i can go somewhere next sem. then i dun have to worry abt usa.

too much dilly dallying.

need to chop chop!

another busy week

nights left: sunday, monday, tues, wed.

need to use wed night for studying of french test.

so, onli sunday, mon and tues left to do lab report. this is tough. considering i onli have about 2 hours on sunday, 4 hours on monday, and 2 hours on tues. these 8 hours are definitely not enough because the effective time spent would definitely be less than 8. probably 4. definitely not enough to complete that damn report.

shit i'm panicking.

TAX-REFUNDED!! (partially)

YESSSS YESSSS.

after SEVEN WEEKS the stooopid francais pple refunded my tax relief. but only partially! i'm supposed to get refund for 26 euro, and 28 euro. BUT i onli got SGD50, which is wayyyyy wayyyyy wayyyyyyy too low to be EITHER 26 euro OR 28 euro. i feel so cheated. waited so long only to get refunded when euro is really weak right now.

checked in xe.com, 1 EUR = 2.02142 SGD. wth lo! that time i went there i changed about 2.14SGD for 1 EUR. kns. and posb charged me 2.2SGD for 1 EURO. *Heart pains to a large extent*

this (approximately) 0.14 SGD makes alot of difference! damn it. with the amount i spent for the whole europe trip, i could have saved more than SG$1000. and i could have used that money for taiwan. *heart pains to a further extent*

at least i learnt something. never ever try to get refunded by card again unless i want to wait for nearly 2 months to lose more money!

but i'm so happy happy happy i finally have extra 50 to spend. getting way way way wayyyy too poor after i come back from la france.

now. just have to wait. for another. $50 to. come. back to me. *GROWLS*

happyness

you sent me the sweetest sms today. it's not the poetic kind, but this time i know u meant it.

so happy <3

-

NMR test over. confirm fail because i never even complete enough questions to pass the paper.
marketing non-graded presentation over.
now waiting for french test before the term break and to get some quality sleep everyday!

-

WATUSA. i think i'm going. but suddenly my 100% yesterday became 80% today. i was overly-excited, and this caused me to think twice due to other commitments.

another boring saturday

spent the whole saturday at home. i'm sometimes amazed at myself for being able to stay at home and not do anything. i woke up at 1 and did not switch on my laptop until around 7+ to check on the work&travel webby. i simply just stoned 6 hours away watching tv and reading one pathetic notes on NMR. why do i do things so slowly?

getting too comfy for my own good. week 6 of sch coming up!

the cold and the battered

not feeling well again. Something is definitely wrong with my body. Whenever I do sth different for a change, my body seems to get really unhappy and start throwin me into all these kind of merde. They sometimes even throw me into moment of fits when I dun even seem to realize what I've done. And my loved ones have to suffer. I really should join some emotion-management class. Or see a psychiatrist. I am too stressed-up a person. I think I have to learn how to respect myself more.

Too many things to learn, too little time.

wow-ness

wow. I'm waiting for u at your house lobby and yet I'm able to tap into your wifi on my touch. Waiting for u is never going to be a pain anymore. Haha. It's a pain though, having to keep trying to make it fingerprint-free.

Oh ya I cut my hair just now. And very randomly decided to dye my hair. Another week passes by and once again I'm spending unnecessary money.I need a new way to earn money soon!

Je n'ai pas d'argent!

(oh no the connection to ur router has disappeared. Oh it's back.)

botak lion meets clementi

finally, a day out out of the north east area with u. it's not even a day. it's a quarter of a day. no, it's only few hours. but that few hours of dinner was more than enough for me, though i would like it to be blame-free.

today is my turn to be blaming u for everything. from that petrol-less car my father left me to sending you home. somehow our roles have switched today? normally it would be you who'd be blaming me for everything. =x

but i still felt sorry. i hate it when i know i'm not treating u with the best attitude. though there's still that tiny bit of joy happiness and content in me to know that u're there for me to show who i really am. someone who knows everything about how i 'operate', my every single tiny action and expression.

i'm glad that i have ur half-full glass of water to fill my half-empty glass.

letter of apology

dear bf,

i'm sorry for doubting you and being paranoid. :(

from Baby G.

(letter of apology demanded by lionel)

-

on a sidenote, I'VE GOTTEN MY NEW TOY!! happy today. and it's my father's birthday!!

*- HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA -*

(though u probably won't see this)

new toys wanted

i have 2 new toys on my 'want' list.

and iphone is out of my list! i don't want the iphone anymore. HAHA. my 3mins hotness really quick.

sometimes i 'scold' him for wanting to do too many things and wanting to own too many things.

sometimes i wonder, how am i different?

-

everytime i see the picture of you with black tee and specs, i can't help but wonder again.

don't let me see pictures of you in black tee and specs again please.

first test in 2 weeks time, howwwww? i'm so sleepy everyday but time doesn't allow me to rest. in the blink of an eye, it's week 4 of school already!

scratch that. it's the end of week 4 already. week 5 starting already! time is really zooooming across.

dry swimming

supposed to go swimming at jurong swimming complex but it rained, so we wanted to go to sengkang's one. in the end went to ur place to play 1 round of mahjong. and lost $5. haha.

had suki buffet for dinner and it was sooooo filling until i couldn't take it.

it's our n months tgt and i'm really happy today except for the silly misunderstand that i've been nagging u since ytd.

black tee. specs. white top. long hair. black hair. being mia for a moment. tampines mall. starbucks. lim.

do i believe you? how can you prove to me that everything's alright? it's not the first time, isn't it? am i just being paranoid but is it wrong to feel that way?

nvm. other than that i'm really happy today. at least you tried to reassure me.

busy busy

suddenly so many things to do!

to be exact, there are so many things i want to do!

some of them quite laughable. i'll think about it first.

nightey night.

pre-sleep post

spent the night

doing 20% of lab report
copying answers for french exercise
printing phys chem and marketing notes
packing bag

and missing you.

anti-labs

i cannot stress how much i hate labs.

or worse, lab reports.

tian ah.

end of week 3

i told myself i'd study harder this sem.
no more games this sem.
but week 4 is coming and yet i've barely done anything.
i'm still stuck with my first experiment.

i'm dead.

diving guys are so cute =D

friday.
you came over to my place because i was sick. i really appreciate it cuz i know u're not feeling very well either. you gave me so many hugs. so happy you remember what i said few nights ago. then we played mahjong. and u sent me home, like how i like it. really very happy on friday :)

then today u accompanied me to church. still feeling horrible. u made me sad for a while but then everything better when u sent me home. thank you so much :)

watched the diving event for olympics for men 100m platform. some guys are just so cute! and the australian guy who won gold catched up at the last round. his dive was really really nice. and after that he cried and i really thought he looked cute. maybe i just like guys who cry.

chez chloe

by the way, chez chloe (pronounce shay chloe) means something like "at chloe's place". it's french!

ha.

french is still as hard as ever.

while thinking for the blog address, i went to dictionary.com to find any word for the blog and i saw this word of the day, juju. it means magic. anybody wants some of chloe's juju?

sick

sick once again. caught the flu. came with sorethroat with occasional headache and open-tap nose. been blowing my nose since morning and it feels horrible. bought 5 packets of tissue on top of my 2 packets of tissue and they're all gone by the time i reach home. finished 2 packets of strepsils but i only felt worse. bought one big box of regular strepsils. hope they will last me until i'm fine.

played badminton with dear and his friends. the last time i played baminton was about 5 years ago. i still suck at it though, missing most of the time and still can't serve properly to the correct place. oh well.

ended school pretty late and went to hougang mall to buy some sushi. my appetite was bad but i always had the mentality that i have to eat and eat. after i finished my sushi(s) i drank a packet of milo and i regretted immediately after my first sip. worsened the feeling in my throat.

the bf is now playing mahjong with his friends again. mahjong has become something he has to do every week now. oh well.

i wonder why i'm feeling sick and depressed now. is it wrong to want to have someone there for me when i'm sick?